number one

2008-01-15T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hi all beautiful ugly ducklings!

Yes Laila, as promised, I shall keep this blog as alive as much as I could k. Hee. Now that I'm back to bumming fuller time.

Yeah. Most of y'all may know by now, that I've officially withdrawn from Republic Poly as of 6 December? Somewhere during that time lah. But anyways, no worries ok. I'm obviously not gonna stop studying for the rest of my life. That's kinda crazy. My plan now is to actually work full time on my own, grow my savings and pay for my own studies. Duh! I don’t know what you guys may think, but for me, it sucks to owe the government money for your studies and eventually be a government dog for a few years just so to pay off everything. No offence yeah, this is just on the surface terms. Please don't start any bloody debate here. I don't enjoy 'happening tagboards'.

Now let's drop the topic. So, if you're asking what I've been doing since I'd long been away from school. Well, I managed to get myself a position in this company known as one of Apple Service Provider. Go figure. You can find it at Alexandra Road. ~ Having problem with your iPod? Your MacBook won't boot up? There's a vertical line on your iMac display? Why don't you bring your machine down to our Service Centre and let our engineers do a full diagnose on it to see the root of the problem. ~ So yeah, that's basically the rough idea of what I'd been doing.

I was there only for about one and a half months. Too short huh? But at least I've gained the experience I need of working during office hours, working in an office environment, doing those admin work, bla, bla. I don't mean to brag, but I know myself that I'm actually doing all fine with almost zero mistakes (heh, like real) but my only flaw is, hehe, my tendency to take unnecessary MC/leave. Guess it's a habit? But whatever it is, I gotta kick it off.

This Thursday, on 17 Jan, I'm selected for an interview at AGC. Woo! Not Asahi Glass Chemical k stupid. It's the Attorney General Chambers. Yeah, the Supreme Court and all. Sounds familiar huh? Though I never get to fulfill my dreams of getting into Temasek Poly to get the Dip in Law & Management, who knows, this would be my rezeki to study law in a different way.

The job scope looks freaking challenging, but it's ok. No pain no gain right. Pray all the best for me k. ;)

If this interview still isn't successful, then I'll be going for Plan B. TBA.

2007-12-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hallo homos!

Just to say something quick,

Me leaving for the Land of Smiles tomorrow night so yeah, gonna be a great deal of different experience for me cause this is kinda the first time I'm staying out of my nation without my family for few days. I bet I'll be leaking there missing home. Sounds kental ey? But wtf, it shows how much I'm attached and the love for my family.

4D3N at Bangkok, right in the heart of the city, Pullman King Power Hotel. 5-star dok, but so what lah huh? The city will still be bustling with vehicle/human traffic. Been there, done that. That crazy tuk-tuk was one hopping night.

Most probably I'll be carrying my laptop with me. But the big question there is, where am I gonna get wireless huh? Saw that I could get one hour of wireless connectivity in my hotel room itself, but can't be too sure bout that right.

Anyway, the main whole point of me going there is basically for my Company's trip. Dinner and Dance on second night. Crazy huh? DND at overseas. But I bet it's gonna be great, and sad having no family/boyfriend beside me.

I am so so so gonna miss that stupid boyfriend of mine (he's stupid cause he's always dumbily cute). He's also stupid cause he doesn't know that I hate how much love him. BLUERK! B-ABI U!

Ok sis and bros, take care je eh in Singapore. See ya around during countdown. What they always say? "Pape picit!" Heh. Okay, seriously, pape picit. Anyway, whoever who knows Din, don't call his hp, call my number instead. Cause I'll be using his SIM to Bangkok.

Ok thanks.

Ok bye.

One last thing,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! I LOVE LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE LOVE YOU! OK GO!

2007-10-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just a quick post now.

To HIM:

Eh bodoh! I still fucking love you lah k. It's so stupid to do such a thing on our 18th. I hope you understand why I said all those. If not, damn bro, you are just plain stupid. And that's just why I love you so much.

Hope to get a call from you tomorrow. Or at least a message.

And I'll be waiting for you at Centre Road for lunch.

By the way, happy 1 year and 6 months baby. I love you.

2007-10-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is Hari Raya or what?!

Wahahahaha! Happy eh aku blog at this kind of time. When as a matter of fact, there's still 101 things to do before we can celebrate happy-happy. So yeah, these are the things that I have to do:

~~1) Collect my tailored kebaya at Chong Pang, Yishun~~

2) Change my 2nd outfit's kain at Geylang Malay Village

3) Shop for a clutch (I need a bag to contain all those green packets right.. ;)

4) My room! Havoc habes!

~~4.1) Change both beds' bedspread~~

~~4.2) Park my bicycle in the store-room~~

4.3) Clear all unwanted things away from sight

4.4) Sweep/vacuum the entire room, including the four walls

~~4.5) That dang dusty shelf~~

4.6) Iron my outfits

4.7) I believe there's more. :/

5) Potong lontong

~~6) Mum had just added this in: Clear the TV display units' drawers~~ Mum did this before I could X)

7) Yet again, I believe there's more... ://

But, for the moment, I want to sleep. Heh. Ni malam taunt!! Wahahahaha. Taunt sapu rumah. O.o'

2007-10-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Seems like I have found the inspiration to blog once again. Not exactly, but I'm just hoping that by doing this, I am able to get my life back. As in, my "life" life. Haiz...

Going MIA doesn't mean that I'm having a good life outside what right? There are so many things to update the Readers about me. But, coming to think of it, is it necessary?

I'd been thinking of creating a new blog, where I would just talk cock sing song, and have it privatised. Hmm.. Maybe not like the ones where you have to login or whatever shit. For those rajin bums, can pandai2 search on it.

Oh yeah, there may be a slight change to my lingo on blogspot though. Writing English all the time is kinda boring and forceful, so most likely I may start writing Malay here and there. This is just for the Non-Malay kepo Readers' information k. I don't want you guys to go around talking shit about me on your url that I'm a bloody racist, when I'm certainly not. Well, maybe I am, but I don't condemn people publicly.. right? Whatever it is, I know I'd done nothing wrong lah k. Not happy, go find my email address on Friendster, add me on MSN, and we'll fight! ~~(Do you play online UNO?)~~

Speaking about that new blog, I'm gonna do just that, right about... now. So, that's all for the mo k.

K bubbye!

2007-08-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha! An update after so long. Say, coming to a month? Oh well, going M.I.A is kinda good.

Hadn't been thinking of blogging at all. Even my laptop has been poorly abandoned by me. Only used once in a while, from a fully charged battery, until it automatically hibernates itself. Poor thing, I think it's kinda merajuk lah.

I'd spent my whole Friday today faithfully at home. Well, I did went out for 15 minutes to see Boyfriend off till the bus-stop. Besides that, I'd been like what? Sleeping? Sweeping? Eating? Laptop-ing? Yeaop. But at least I get to see him for an hour or so just now.

My other days for the past month had been spent solely for work, and lepaks. That includes going to school. Somehow or rather though.

Although work has been putting me off the hook, I still manage to get time to be with Boyfriend for some days. Though I would say, spending too much time ain't doing any good at all. But being away makes the heart missing the other. Oh well, complications of being in love. There isn't really any good happy ending after all right? Someone please prove me wrong with that.

Plus plus plus, I'd made a powerful new crazy wacky new achievement on the nation's birthday. As some may very well know, the stretch between City Hall and Raffles Place was crazily crowded on Aug 9, right? For fireworks' sake, Boyfriend and I decided to literally cycle to town from home. And so we did. Having bought my new bicycle at Yishun two days before that, and him bringing his own bike from his own home itself, we set off from my void deck of Woodlands Crescent (rightfully nearest to Admiralty MRT station) towards Marsiling, while everybody is just getting up from bed due to the public holiday. Then through those smoky and humongous vehicles passing right by our paddles, we headed for Ten Mile Junction located at Bukit Panjang, stopping for a couple of times along Woodlands Road and Kranji MRT station once for bottle refills.

Upon reaching Ten Mile Junction, we didn't stop for anything but carried on ahead towards Bukit Timah Road. It was only for the red lights that we had to stop, or rather at times, because of me. I was always close to giving up while cycling uphill cause damn they are freaking tiring my calves out. So the road went on and on, with us cycling between 3rd and 4th gear, until we finally FINALLY reached Far East. From Somerset onwards, it became almost impossible to cycle past the people there, so we began pushing our wheels. If I was given the chance to rate, I would give 5 smelly eggs to the human traffic happening there.

So then, we went off for my workplace at City Hall to top-up our empty bottles. Bought a warmed banana-chocolate chip muffin for the both of us. Thanks eh Zul for not giving me the 20% partners' discount. Anyway, we finished that muffin up within minutes and we went off to look for Tanjong Pagar. Thought of having some nice meal at a decent food centre, but then, we only had spaghetti and tom yam noodles at our favourite store, 7-11. Furthermore, it was that same 7-11 that me and my Starbucks' friends went to while we were still sitting for those classroom modules. Ah, those memories. Yasser, Indra, Reez, the rest and all. Crazy people. Much loved though.

Back to my cycling adventure. After those beautiful fireworks which we'd witnessed by that place where there only grasses just by the river, I don't know what was that place called but for all I know, the nearest building was that NTUC thingy. Oh well, after all those nice things, we went by the same route home. Left the place at 2100 and managed to wheel till my void deck somewhere at midnight.

The pair of wheels which made it possible for us, for me at least:

Red one's mine.

2007-07-21T17:28:00.000+08:00

She thinks I'm talking about her. Block, unblock then block. Might as well delete right. Haha. No lah, I'm not talking about her lah. I'm talking about another girl. But anyway, I still keep her in my friends list. Right at the bottom. Hmm.. Her blog is inaccessible for me. Should I just erase her from my darLinks? Haha. Nah. Like I say, I'm still keeping her ... Untuk aku cekik2 nanti pat akhirat. Haha. Gila Azrin.

Anyways, I love my new layout. Including my edited tagboard. Happy hues, I would say. Happy happy happy. But, as mentioned as the blog's title itself: Happy Hues, Put on Your Specs... Yeah. Cause I know the font is tinytiny. And I'm not going to do anything about it. Muahaha! I'ma make all of you go short-sighted and wear retro specs to school, just like that girl I saw the other day. Okay, no link Azrin, I know.

Today's gonna be an awful dreadful stay-home Saturday. Pffrt. Din has deployment for some Racial Harmony Day thing at Jurong West near my aunt's place there, I think. And can I have that horny bastard (not Din, hell NO!) to come online and send me that Harry Potter movie so that I can keep watching it all night. That friend of mine had downloaded it from some website which totally no doubt supports piracy, and the size of it was like 799990kb I think. I was anxiously waiting for it while the data's being sent through messenger, when suddenly, MSN decides to be a bitch and disconnected him from me. Pardon my language, but Hey! This is ME!

I'd watched it at the cinema once but I want to watch some more cause I can't get enough of Danielle Radcliffe a.k.a Harry Potter. HOTSTUFF! While I was in my seat sucking on my cheese sausage, as I looked up, Harry's face was flashed on the screen for the first time and I was stunned for that moment. Kimak, handsome siol! That was the first thing I'd said so the subconscious-ly. Yet, I kept repeating that for the next 5 minutes and Boyfriend was getting heated beside me by then. He tried to get back at me when Emma Watson a.k.a Hermione came on but nah, it didn't work. Cause I can't deny she has grown so much pretty pretty pretty! Naturally lovely. Ron Weasley too, Harry's bestfriend, Rupert Grint right? He's hot too. That Malfoy boy isn't much appealing in this season though. Haiz.. I guess this is enough already. I'm beginning to sound like those primary / secondary school days when everyone goes gaga when they see these characters on screen. Sheesh. I must stop it before it starts again.

Talking about Harry Potter, I believe that at 1901 sharp the Deathly Hallows will be released. Boyfriend says wait for a few months until its price get plunged down, then we go get the book. Haix.. I hope I can resist the anticipation and all. Harry Potter is like ... Okay, I musn't start.

Vasantham Central is repeating a show that I've watched before, but I don't mind watching it again cause I like! The main actor is cute, actress is gorgeous, storyline is good, so why not? Anyway it's a stay-home Saturday right. So I shall just fill myself up with all the media I can get and rot till I decide to go for a walk.

Oh yeah, and I think I have some more things to update on my blog. So I'm off to the template page now. Ciao~

2007-07-21T05:41:00.000+08:00

Damn! I should have waited for 6 more days and I could strike ONE month of NO blog updates or whatsoever. I'm changing the blogskin soon cause I'm beginning to puke at this green shade (which suddenly appears to be so not nice to my eyes anymore).

For the past one hour or less, I was skimming through a friend's blogspot and a friend's friend's blogspot. I realised that the both of them (being a couple themselves) talk about nothing on their url except daily routine of theirs. For example only eh, if they were musicians, all they write about is, "Yesterday I went jamming at bla-bla-bla. Then ate lunch. Then we slack. After that go jamming at bla-bla-bla. Damn fun." You know this kind of thing. Heh. If any of you know who am I talking about, just hush. To the both of you, no hard feelings kay. I just find that the both of you like so cute like that. Couples with same blogging style, and you both even share the same smile I would say. Very broad ones. Nice! The both of you are sooo meant for each other. Heh. Just like me and Din- SMURFS. Haha. Cheers! If anybody else feel offended about this blogging thing, that one your problem lah eh. You want to fight fight with me, bring it on. HAH.

Oh yeah, the other day I was sharing about some things with a classmate. And she told me something which I wish to announce on my blog here.

To whomever it may concern: If you have so much bad things to say about me to the rest of 'our' friends, why don't you say all those in front of my face?! I am sooo not surprised baby girl. I've known you long enough to know your attitude and such.

Aku macam nak maki hamun dia rabak2 je ah. Haix.. Sabar Azrin, sabar.

To rest of the people who actually choose to believe her words or whatsoever, all I have to say is that I'd done no sins to her and I wonder why does she have to backstab me in this way, when all I did was cared for her. Example, when she cry like most of her lifetime and after I lent her my shoulder, what did she say again after her long credits to everyone (except me, of course)... and whoever who I forgot to mention. Oh that's very sweet of her. If some of you just can't understand what I'm saying, ask me if you're really concerned. I'm writing this way to indicate to her that Hey! If I keep quiet, it doesn't mean I don't know what's going on...

Okay. Enough about this lah eh. I won't die for this. Seriously.

After doing sooo much stuff from midnight just now, I never realised that it's FIVE IN THE MORNING NOW! WTH?! I guess I'll be going to bed after the sun rises lah huh. Just like the old times. Tsk tsk.

Basically, this entry, being the first one after so long, is seriously a very boring one. Yet, it's red red hot at the same time. Wohoo!

So I'ma surf Blogskins.com now for new layouts. Hahaha. But then, I've downloaded alot already for the past few months. Heh. I should learn doing my own template one day. Yeah, I should. But when?

CRAPS.

2007-06-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

I have many things to talk about now. But I don't know where to start. Hmm..

On Monday, Laila came to RP! Yeah. She called me during second breakout. Met her somewhere near block W1, then we went somehow around the whole school just to go back to my block, W2. In class, I took out my digicam (I don't know why I decided to bring it on that day, maybe cause I could feel my cam-bitch is coming, hah!) and we went to meet Yana whose class is at the same block and same floor as me. Thanks Yana for that ghostly story. Heh. So we took crappy videos and innovative pics. Okay lah, not really that innovative but hey, I liked it all! Here is just the first part with Yana:

See how Laila's eyes can seduce. Hah.

And she still hasn't change since secondary school. ;)

Nowadays' girls' favourite pose.

Yana and me look almost the same kan?

In here, my right hand looks so wrong. X)

Before Yana left..

Then there were still lotsa time for me and Laila, so we both cam-bitched.

Very much like those cartoon pics, i.e. big heads, small bodies.

And then, we had our own maciam-studio-like photos taken.

I dare say, Laila's hands are blessed to make her a superbly good photographer. Really can't deny that. See how much better the pics look when she takes it compared to me! Haha. Or maybe is it just the flash? Hehe.

Actually I wish to continue but I have to go get ready now to work. There's still about the chalet topic that I wanna talk about but it seems that time doesn't permit me now. Shall update as soon as I can.

BEFORE YOU LEAVE, TAG ME! Hah. Case paksa sak. No lah. Laila made my hair that way so no questions please...

2007-06-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back in school lah sey. Hah. Kinda miss the old classmates. Now, some of them like changed already uh. Haha. Including me also lah k. Alvin is getting way way irritating now. But I still love him. (: Yeah. Rightchers!

I might be overnight-ing at chalet tonight. Haish.. See first lah huh. Okay peeps, I'll be working on Wed, Fri & Sun. Find me there anytime lah k. Anyway, the EXPECTED VISITORS didn't turn up lah of course. Don't worry, I'm not mad at anyone. And if I'm not wrong, I think this will be my final week at Suntec Starbucks. Sad liao lah. Puspita not working anymore also. Haish..

Oh yes, one fine day I will go down to One Fullerton and skin that Zaini alive lah. YEARGH!!!

Actually I have nothing to say lah. So bobye~

Hibernate & Refresh

2007-06-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

After weeks of hibernation, I'm half-awake now. So school was supposed to start last Monday, after the 2 weeks break. But heh, somehow I'd unintentionally gave myself an extra week of break. Tuesday, my second brother got married so first day off. Wednesday, thought it would be no harm to get second day off. Thursday, I'd accidentally went back to sleep. Friday, though schoolbag's all packed, my eyes still insisted on closing till noon.

So yeah. I'm basically a lazy bum. Sleeps all day, stays up almost all night. Damn I need ta change.

Was attached to one of Suntec's Starbucks outlet for my past two shifts. Seriously, I can't tell whether they were sincere or not, but hell, the baristas were really nice and cute. To name some, there were Bob, Mas, Suzie, Aishah, Jeremy, Oya (I don't know how to spell arh). Amar was together with me also during some of the trainings. Met Zaini, One Fullerton's manager. Surprisingly, he was from Yishun Town! But of Class way back in the 90's - 1998. I was only Primary Two then lah dei. Hah. Somehow, the way he speaks to me, reminds me of Idi. Idi is my sweet-and-loving [not.] learning coach back at my permanent outlet. Speaking of which, there will be a chalet for all SB-RC baristas on Monday. And I have to pay $5 for that. *ka-ching* There goes my green bucks~

Tomorrow working 12 to 10. Expecting visitors! A friend whom I had never met before (it's a long story between me and her, but since she's working around the area, she's dropping by!) and my dear cousins. Hmm.. I'm just afraid I might not be able to entertain you guys cause I'm still undergoing in-store training, so it's like kinda hard. But don't fret, I shall do my best. Heh.

So yeah, I'd decided to change my blog layout as a way to refresh myself after my 3 weeks of holiday. Like I'd said, I'ma work, school, work and more work until I'm satisfied. Yeah.

But now, I'm going hunting in the kitchen. Hungry!

2007-06-11T02:22:00.000+08:00

BIG BROVAZ LYRICS
"Baby Boy"

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year we spent together
How it’s been, what we went through
Although we’ve had our little ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

Baby girl you’re my world, my everything
I wanna lace you with diamonds and every ring
Give you everything you dream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me that you love me, looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,
I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,
I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,
I feel your whole aura
And I can’t wait to hook up again tomorrow baby - what

[Chorus:]
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.

Everytime I look at you,
I can’t believe I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I spend with you
You make me believe I have nothing to loose (and)
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine

Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling that this was meant to be
Without you I’d be lost, I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full of luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung,
knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up the aisle
~~With you carrying my child~~, C’mon

~[Chorus]

If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love

Ever since the first time,
that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,
when you’re not by my side
You’re the only girl that’s on my mind
I never knew a love like this, a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect it could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna see you belong with Jay
I might have to marry you one day baby eh..

~[Chorus / Outro]

[Thanks to AnGeLiC_sAz@hotmail.com for these lyrics]
[Thanks to majobabe@xtra.co.nz for correcting these lyrics]

[ www.azlyrics.com ]

[Thanks to Azrin_author@blogger.com for posting this. Heh. Extra only.]

The only person coming to my mind each time this song is being played:

2007-06-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

Don't worry. The text is in red cause I just felt that black is taking over my entire life already now. So no animals were harmed. (Okay, no link.)

Today, went for my second training at Starbucks HQ- Service at Starbucks. After 3 hours in the training room, I realised that what I was doing all that time is totally related to my course back in RP. Thanks to Yasser (okay, I got his name wrong with that ~~Fareez~~) for asking me what course am I taking. So when I spit that mouthful words, I realised, yeah, it was all about Customer Relationship and Service Management. Hah. So I guess I'm ahead of time huh. Hmm... Suddenly I wonder, since I can relate this job industry to my course, I wonder what can be related to Supply Chain Management... Hehehe. Oops!

Cameron Diaz look abit like Reese Witherspoon right? Or is there something wrong with my eye? And did Christina Aguilera really went for bust implant?, cause it's like super humongous for her size.

That was like totally random lah.

So later morning I'll be watching him play for 90 minutes. And then, watch him go the next minute. Haiz.. Just now also, we only get to meet for not more than 2 hours sey. We only spend our time chatting with friends, walking and mrt-ing. Never get to be really alone together. But it's no big. We've got better thingsto think about and do. Yeah. We have goals to target and all that. Just with this, we can spend good time together lah, being partners. Yeah. Jia you us!

Went back to cafe just now, after AGES. Met the team and all them. And it's super hot lah can, now that the cafe is closed and we had to sit outside. But then again, received good interesting and exciting news. Gotta take action quick ah. No more time to waste. After so long of being lost touch with everything. when I met them all, got back my confidence now yea. Watch Azrin fly! Yeah right~ And I saw Hitam (black in Malay) again, my cat's other half. Haha. Still that same old cat lah, as lazy as my Puteh (white in Malay).

If some of you don't understand what I'm talking about in the previous para, never mind. You all will eventually know k, for those who don't. The one who is smart enough, just hush.

Just adding this to remind myself that later, at 1945hrs, there's Shrek 2. A must MUST watch for me. Anybody else who think they are kind enough, feel free to remind me okay.

Wanna play my Burger Island game now lah. It's from Yahoo, and kinda lame. But who cares? I like lei. And I can't play CS cause I have no new AAA batteries for my mouse. That is super sad lah right. )): Anyone can donate me a pair now?

2007-06-08T04:02:00.000+08:00

Another post since I ain't that sleepy now. Hmm.. Let me think of anything random. Maybe I'll start with my life.

Now that I have a job, thought there would be some changes. But things at home remains the same. Each time I come home either from work or play, there would sure be one thing that isn't right at home. Each person, one complication at least. And of all, I pity my mum. Seriously lah. She's really very lonely and I can tell that. I'm just doing my best here to keep her accompanied. Or at least I've tried, and am still at it.

Boyfriend, I'm missing him. Simply cause he's not here tonight. And I'm still feeling bad about yesterday. I shouldn't neglected him like that. It was so wrong. I hope I don't make the same mistake again.

Classmates asked me out later afternoon. But I'm afraid to go out with them. I might just end up in the same kind of trap like the other night. Blindly meet them at Cineleisure's KBox, just to find out that each of us had to pay some amount when I have zero pennies and say, $1 in my bank. That's how I owe Matt $1,000 (not the true figure). KBox experience was good though. Especially when you get to sing your classmates' names' song, i.e. Desiree & Nikita. And have your boyfriend sing for you in front of your friends. Muackz lah!

Suddenly, I felt like writing a poem/song with the word 'Starbucks' in it. Hmm...

It was good to hang around with Laila once again.

I feel kinda sad that I can't spend as much as my friends. Including having meals, even at coffeeshops.

I'm missing a lot of people now. Just to name some who likes to tell me about their life or just anything ...
; Kak Shil for her forever complaints (I'm not complaining, just complimenting that you're unique!),
; Firdaus for his long-winded stories,
; Shasha for her crazy talk,
; Lala with her hatred attitude,
; Ijan (my brother) for his experience with life outside,
; Ayie for his relationship & politic conflicts,
; Alwiyah for her story life.
These are some of the things that I get used to doing last time, that now that they're missing, I feel somethings are amissed.

I miss my Nenek (grandmum) too, Abus (my youngest aunt), Mak Dah and Owie (my aunt and niece at Jurong), my cousin Kak Yun, all that naughty nieces and nephews of mine, Din's nieces, Din's mum, Din's dad, Din's bro, 4E4 (my sec sch class), W26Q (my RP class), my folks at CIE ... Argh! What's with me now?!

I just miss people who made marks in my life diary. But I don't miss my sec sch teachers' naggings and personal counselling at me. HAH!

Okay, I really should hit the bed now. In my bro's room tonight. Ciao~

2007-06-08T02:32:00.000+08:00

First things first:HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILA! WEE~

Okay, so my previous post was abruptly ended. But actually, I'd typed them few days ago but only decided to post it just now. And since I'd forgotten what happened, that's th best I could say, "....gtg....".

Here is some little news about me: I've gotten myself a job at one Starbucks in town area. Exact location, ask me personally aight. But if anyone of you are hoping for a free drink, I regret to say that I can't give you that. But I could try giving you all discount yea. Come down to my store sometime after the twelfth yah. It's very much prominent since it's a very busy place.

Just now I went for my first (second, if including the First Impressions one) training at Tanjong Pagar, the Starbucks HQ. It was good experience. Especially when you realise that your ex-secondary-school-classmate's name is on the list when you mark the attendance. Yeah. It was NurLaila Bte Mazlan that I saw. Super happy lah can. Finally there's a reason for us to be in the same class again. Hah. It was pure coincidence lah. So it was like back to the first day of school in RP, where there were Niki, Jas and me (the 3 schoolmates) in one class. Now there's the 3 classmates, silence was broken. But then, our spirit didn't really seeped through our "classmates".

Anyway, all of them were cool. In my group, there were Fiza (the girl who asked me if I smoke), Reez (that ALOTLOT manager), Indra (the cute one), Halim (with the fierce-look face) and myself (no comments). Then there's Ash who gave me one of her wanton. Jocelyn, I'm sorry you've got crazy colleagues at your store, i.e. Laila and Yana. Heh. Fareez, is it?, that thorn among the roses. Este was cute, and damn she's from NUS, and happens to look similar like my cousin who used to be in NUS as well. Eda was the full-time girl who sat beside me with her handphone that kept vibrating. I didn't catch this guy's name but I know he works at Starbucks Airport Terminal 2. Heh. Funny how I can remember where they work easily but not their names. I've mentioned Laila already right. And of course if it's not my cha bor namely, Jasmine. Ever since I started going out with her and all, I'd turned up for things early :) . That's something new about Azrin. Except that, I had to make her wait for me for the past two days already.

So there were 13 of us, plus the coach Kiat, who is a district manager somewhere in the east. Hope to meet them all again this Saturday for the next training.

Did you know that coffee grows only within the tropic of Cancer and the tropic of Capricorn? Plus, Colombia coffee tastes and smells a bit like ciggarette. And that Starbucks first logo was kinda obscene with that siren showing off its nippies. (Reminding me of Jas' adventure story.. Heh.) Anyway a Siren is like a mermaid but it has two tails instead. Yeah. Next time, take a closer look at the logo yah. You will get what I mean.

Enough of coffee now. I shall knock off then. But before I do ...

I'm sorry I didn't care enough for you or gave you the attention that you should get. I admit I'm being kinda careless and forgetful. I think I'd hurt you this time. I'll do my best to be a better girlfriend for you next time. Don't say no. This is my own decision. I love you and it's my responsibility somehow that you shouldn't suffer. I'm truly very sorry. I realise my mistake already now, although you're not having anything against me. I love you. And my mum scolded me again because of you know. *sob*

2007-06-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

Police Day Parade was ooh-ooh-ooh!! Hah. Up, down, left, right I see all guys in blue uniform. Especially the seat we got. All around me, except Din sitting on my left of course, were botak guys. Hahak. Even that small boy sitting in front of me was botak too. Hehe. He is super cute + noisy lah can. That chinese NS guy beside me was kinda cute, but the malay one beside me is cuter. Hehehe. Okay, enough about them guys.

In all, the parade and stuff all made me proud to be an ex-policewoman's daughter. Yeahh. Especially the SOC (Special Operations Command). I was dying to see the STAR Unit peeps in action, but as some of you know, they never reveal themselves. The performances by the police were cool. The dance performances were good too, cause they gave me the cue that I should start eating on my pizza (I brought two large slices from home). Oh yes, lastly, I like it when they call the guests to stand up, although it was a freaking lotsa times. Basically because I could turn to see my baby in totally full-u with that peaked cap just above his sepet eyes. Handsome, sachok, tampan, plainly wow! Hah.

Unfortunately, I didn't manage to get the camera before I left home. Haish~ If not I could fantasize all night looking at his pics in uniform. Okay, that doesn't sound quite right. But heck!

After making Din and brother walk a long distance by the river, and just before boarding the bus, I found out that my ez-link card is missing!!! Trouble. Walked all the way back to the indoor stadium to my dismay, couldn't find anything. Double trouble! And so we went off so the sadly. Okay, I was the one who was super sad there.

However, the three of us had a good time then. Cause we all decided to walk all the way to Esplanade. The route that we took, is the path that hold sweet memories of me and Din on different nights.

{Flashing back} It was after a horrible dinner at somewhere near Beach Road with my family and Din. It was horrible cause the tulang merah was bleargh. Anyway, after that meal, being our one-of-those-monthiversary-days, I decided to spend some time alone with him. So I asked the family to go ahead home while me and Din hang around town a while. We had a great time. While walking below the highway, he sang his lungs out those sappy Malay songs, which I'd originally hated, to me. He'd changed the whole meaning of all those sentimental songs. Thank you baby. And the night got better while I was lying down on his lap by the river. Out of thin air, came beautiful fireworks flashing up in the dark blue starred sky. It was mesmerizing. No doubt bout it. The best monthiversary ever. It could have been splendid if all those had waited till our anniversary. Nevertheless, I'm thankful to God for this priceless gift.

Back to present now. Hah. We were walking across the bridge and we discovered lots and lots of small kerapu fish on the concrete. Eeeeiiii!! And so, I asked Din to piggy-back me. Hah. He ended up carrying me for a few metres distance. Siann de. He was perspiring, no, he was watering like mad. That all dripped down to my smooth arms. Lol. But I mind not. Heh.

That's a small bit from the time I had with Din and brother. After all that, I went to Starbucks at Swissotel for a short while to meet Alvin. Then I was at Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit my brother's friend who was recently involved in a very tragic car accident.

...... gtg ......

2007-06-03T06:07:00.000+08:00

Suffering from backache now thanks to playing CS for only 3 hours. Once I get in bed, yeah, it will feel like heaven. Tuh. Oh bed, I'll be there in minutes aight. Lol.

Before the game, I had a mega kinda unhealthy dinner. It started from my sis ah. Hungry, wanna eat KFC. So I called for delivery. After I hang up with that rude KFC operator, sis wants Pizza Hut. So again, the same number but different outlet of course. (The Pizza Hut operator was nice and friendly. Talked to her like as if she's a primary schoolmate or what.) In less than half-hour came the KFC's Family Feast A + Cheese Fries. They gave the cheese and mayo separately, and muah! Deliciously delicious. Then it was the large Cheese Lava Crust Seafood Pizza and sis' Chicken Royale Pasta. Can't deny, I love that spongy crust. Mmm-mmm-mmm! It was a painful (for me, but seems like not for sis) 71++ moolahs altogether. Oh yes, and the delivery riders both were cute. KFC's cuter. Lol. Very sopan lah, say Assalamua'laikum. Haha. Dah2 Azrin... Din baca nanti kang.

By the way, just now, out of boredom, I went to the bathroom, took out the scissors and began snapping at my fringe so super happily. Snip, snap, snip, snap! Next thing I know, I regretted. Me and my itchy hands. It's someway above my eyebrows now. Gosh. Don't feel like going out to meet Din and brother later. Malu lah. Haha. When I told Din about this, he used his favourite line on me: You and your clever ideas. Sheesh. Thanks eh.

Oh ya, and I was kind of paisey just now can? Cause while I was enjoying my own time with my CS, I didn't realise that my bro was watching as well. So when I killed the last enemy just now, I was shaking my bod ignorantly happily. My bro said, "Eh eh suka kau." In other words, happy oni ah. So it was kind-of-a-paisey thing ah. Okay, forget it if you don't feel me.

Now is a good time to surf Friendster, but it's 'under construction'. Sheesh.

It's coming close to 6AM already now and I'm like suppose to be at Din's house at 12 later. Haish. Don't know whether can make it or not. I'm going there just to happy2 see his mum (kinda missing her already) then me, him and the brother are going to Indoor Stadium for this Police Day Parade thing. Who else got the tickets for me if it isn't dear old Din. And guess what? He will be in full-u later! Khehehe. (I hope he's not lying.) But girls, you all should know how sachok guys look when they wear police uniform. You feelin' me? Uh-huh. I'm so gonna have to dig for that digi-cam. Now where is it~

Feel like CS-ing again ah. Shall I or shall I not? Hmm.. I'm thinking of map fy_iceworld_cs. Go go go!!! This is what happens to noob girls. But hey, I don't think I'm still a noob right? Nah. I still stink at it. Pfft.

The birds have woken up already now. You know what it means.. Sunshine will be out soon.

2007-06-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

Seeing MZ Services tag me reminds me. I was actually supposed to be at Darul Makmur Mosque (the one at Yishun) at 9AM this morning. Cause my cousin had open up a stall there as part of his community service, right? I'd kind of promised him that I would come down to help him out, but I'd MIA the whole day. Very sorry cousin. If I'm not working during these holidays, I come over your house ok? Regarding your art lah of course. Heh.

I still haven't contacted Alvin yet. Haiz... There goes an opportunity I guess.

Actually I blog just to talk about my cousin only. This entry is specially for MZBS tau. Heh.

Now I wanna go back to my CS (it's Counter-Strike for the benefit of those who don't know). Hah. Yeah, I'm crazy over CS now. Well, not really lah. But I like the game. It's super power. You all should try it know. Relieves your stress. Bleargh~ Bye!

2007-06-02T17:47:00.000+08:00

I am so done with editing this blogskin. I'm not really your average atttude girl, but I just love the green theme, my fav color ~LIME~. But this lime color like dah basi like that. Anyway, I had a hard time finding this song cause there were like 7 others of 'Over It' songs on iwebmusic.com and I had to find the one that is sang by Katharing Mcphee and which doesn't make her voice sound like a man. Yeah, the first Over It link I'd clicked, when I listened to it, at first thought I was thinking, Oh Over It got sang by a guy one also ah, check3 it turned out to be the person who uploaded it must have recorded the song with the mic too near the speakers. And yah, if anyone of you don't like the song, just clicked Esc on your keyboard, it will make it stop playing.

My profile here on the right was kinda bitchy but who cares. I just felt like typing it that way. Just to synchronise it with the blogskin. Lol, ok no link.

So yepp, it's the holidays for the YearOnes now. Stretching for only 2 weeks though. That's short, and that's sad. And I wanna work lah. Why is it so hard for my family to let me go?? Why lah? Haiz.. Whatever their reason may be, I still think I should work. Personal reasons can? I wanna give Alvin a definite answer but I'm just afraid I would pang se him in the last minute. Alvin has a lobang for me, and I'm fine with it. My mummy, after much negotiation with me, she can't say no anymore. The problem just lies in my brothers and father. Haiz...

Sometimes, I just feel like I'm not part of the family. I am just an outsider who happens to sit at the same table as them. Watching them laughing away, from the corner of my seat. Dearest mummy the only person who actually realising my existence.

Bring me far away from this humans. And erase me from their memory, forever.

Okay, that is just so emo-tic. But FUCK!

Irritated .

2007-05-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

Okay, I've finally decided to really delete my previous post. And I'm irritated already now. Haizz...

Currently in classroom, waiting for the first two teams to start their debate. Do debate fun lah. Why lah our dear Gloria (Enterprise Skills facilitator) make my team the one and only to do role-play??? Sian seh. At least in debate I can shoot the opposing team like hell. Shoot, shoot, shoot! Fuh! Best can? Haizz...

The debate is quite dead. But I think Barty and Alvin are good. Jan is talking abit too much, but at least he is heating up the situation, which I don't know whether it's something good or bad. And why the hell am I acting like the faci now?! It's not that as if I can grade them right. Hah.

Aiiyah... After school there's floorball training. End at 7. And I seriously just wanna go home and sleep with my bantal usuk. :( However, I love floorball! Yeah. But, hopefully I wasn't kicked off for not coming for the past 2/3 trainings. Oops!

I want to sleeeep. I want to eeeeat. My mummy cook my favourite. Nyeargh!

And I miss Din, my new-found girlfriend. LOL. Yes, when he's not with me, he's simply my boyfriend. But if we're together, he's my girlfriend. Mmmahaha.

Eh, the debate starting to get more exciting. Wanna ciao liao. Go~

i cry easily .

2007-05-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

I'm seriously tearing right now because I'd just read this blog entry by some friend of mine. It was on Friendster blog and it was written by a 16-year-old guy. Yes, GUY. He basically wrote about this girl whom I know really damn well. Okay. This girl is my...friend. (I'm trying not to give any hints.) She used to have this secret thing with this guy but the relationship didn't work because of complicated reasons. From the way I see it, their love story has been and still seems to be alive (to me only okay! but not for them). Although they were quite wrong at that point of time, I totally support their love affair. I don't know why. Their love story touches me easily. That's why, each time when I hear something about the both of them, my heart feel for you guys man. It's like for example, he made a song for her, the words may not sound right, but I still cried. And like now, I read his blog entry, I could straight away tell that he's talking about her (although both has already moved on). And the first few lines already made me cry, again.

Okay. So one lesson learnt about AZRIN: She cry easily when she hears or sees love stories. END

Time to change topic, my eyes are drying up now. Hah. So yah, don't tell me about your love-life k, cause I might just cry. Actually anyone of you can lah, just prepare a box of tissue for me.

Oh, I just wanna post this phrase, but before I do, take note that this is just something random yet true but it's not like as if I want it to come back to me. OK? So, here goes: "2 years ago.. A chapter of my life was opened. 11 months later, it was closed." Right, it wasn't as long as I sounded it to be, but hey, like I'd said, it's a phrase. Anyway, you can relate this to that Walk Away song.

Shit. I just realised that this entry of mine could actually cause Two Couples to have a misunderstanding because I'm talking about this Two Girls' past/old-flame. Just a reminder to this Two Girls' Boyfriends, they both love both of you respectively okay, it's just memories which is just something random, nothing to be taken seriously as like I'd said again, THEY BOTH LOVE THE BOTH OF YOU RESPECTIVELY.

You all do know right, there are bound to be times that you would just have a flashback on the person that you USED to love and adore so much. This is the time I am having. So my boyfriend, please do take note of what that should be noted. Most importantly, I Love You Baby And I Have No Other Man In My Heart, seriousshit. Heh.

Enough on this topic.

There's something else that has been ringing in my head, and I hope all you out there can advise me on this (CBox can come in useful now). Actually... Right... I was thinking... Of... Starting to ~~suck SKL~~. Heh. Can I light one now?

changed!

2007-05-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

Last Night by P.Diddy & Keyshia Cole, comes with a new blog layout and CBox skin. LOL. All just because of a song. Heh. And this song drives me crazy. I can imagine the hip-hop moves I've learnt during the Boot Camp, used for me to dance to the tune of this song. Trouble, trouble. Haha.

Yesterday afternoon was bone-breaking for me. Errr... Not really ah. Just that Jasmine & me were trying too hard to do a nice Shoulder Freeze. I managed to do it once!!!! But never again. Hah. We watched this video on Youtube, this Jap guy teaching how to do one in a very detailed manner, in Jap language. LOL. And Jas ended up doing a "new stunt" which I would call the Rabbit Smile. Cause her legs in mid-air looked like rabbit's ears, her jeans' back pockets as the eyes and her exposed skin as the mouth. Mmahahaha. Sorry girl. Can I post the pic here? >)

And last night, my RP friends, Din and myself, were at the RP's Grand Magic Show held at TRCC (The Republic Culural Centre). Some parts of it was rather lame, some was interesting, some reminds me of satan and some are just boring. And one of the magicians was Bao Long! Yup, that guy from Yishun Town Sec. I still remember, he love to show his magic tricks outside the old Yishun Town campus' gym. He and Ilhammi. Haha. After the show, we saw him at Causeway Point BK, and he remembered us! LOL. And I didn't do my RJ (Reflection Journal) for yesterday's and Wednesday's one. Shit lah. I sure get degraded one. Haizz...

Last night...

Last night...

Last night...

Things just happened too fast. I was left on my own. With no words to say. No chance given for explanation. No more things to say. All I could do was weep, and cry. What else could I say? You wouldn't wanna listen at all. Everything was my fault. I realised I couldn't understand you enough. Or maybe I don't at all. Now, I'm left with this swollen eyes. And a new hope that this relationship can keep on holding on stronger than usual.

Still undecided. I leave everything to God's hands. We can only plan, but He is the one who determines.

Like I've said, it's tough being a girl.

an apology to all

2007-05-16T13:46:00.001+08:00

sorry to all who'd tagged (i.e. ainni, rachite*, Ayn, ilyana, dayatz, shizari). as early as from 12 Apr till 4 May, i've totally neglected these people. LOL. sorry yah. been very busy lah. then when i'm free, i'm lazy to update my bloggie. now, with this new skin, new song and new CBox (soon), i shall update as often as possible okie. haha.

currently, i'm crazily bonkers over this song: Last Nite by P.Diddy & Keyshia Cole. maybe when i'm over this Walk Away song, i'll change with a new skin to go with it.

don't ask me why this Walk Away song. reminds me of a person from my past. haizz... but no, it's just memories that i'm erasing away. my heart is full and occupied with Din, no more space liao. hees. :D

anyway, today is me and my class' 1st month-iversary. in other words, i'd been schooling in this school for 1 month already. how time flies! wth. seriously, school was fun for the first 2-3 weeks. dinner after school everyday, pool/bowling every Friday nights, counter-strike at 11pm. but, not even one month yet, one by one leave. haizz... i wonder who's next? maybe me. :(

okay. enough of EMO. haha. i really can emo all of a sudden ah. but then, i never wish to be a fucking emo poser sia. bloody idiot ah these type of humans. no life ah! hahak. i pity your mums. and i simply hate the way they look at life. never wanna appreciate the people who love and care for them but always think ofthe negative stuffs. irritating bucking fitch ah! (haha. got that from ily. yes.)

and lastly, i'm very hungry now.

takoyaki~

chicken seaweed~

chicken chunk~

cup noodles~

old chang kee junks~

cheese sausage~

honey chicken~

~~~

i'm proud!

2007-05-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

muahahaha.

finally an update from The Ultimate.

LOL. so the whatever.

i know, i know.

i've been gone for too long.

hah. like as if anyone of you miss me!

anyway, right now, my location is in RP. yeah.

exact location: W1 Forum.

yeah, that place with alot of centipede one.

and the place where CIE-ans partied like pigs.

basically i'm here at this time of the night cause of the Hip Hop IG (Interest Group, that exists only in RP).

well, whattodo.

someone selected for the second round audition mah (in other words, i passed my first audition to enter this IG).

LOL. always so full of myself sey.

anyway, the this second round audition is not that simple.

it's actually an overnight boot camp where we all would be exposed to the different kinds of hip-hop style dancing, and most importantly, and most excitingly, BREAKDANCING.

yeah!

just for today itself, i'd learnt 2-3 stunts (which i have yet to master) -,-"

however it is, i'm a proud girl today.

yeah.

although i have not catch the gist of dancing B-boy / Fly-Girl style.

last of all, just to holla:

HIP HOP TO THE LOLLIPOP!!

YEAH!

quick entry.

2007-04-15T23:05:00.001+08:00

i don't really have much time to blog now.

and i really REALLY so wanna change the fonts of my blog.

it's so fugging ugly & doesn't suit with the layout AT ALL.

any ideas to throw anyone?

nice fonts?

but like i said, i'm rushing for time.

so i'll just put all of these that i wanna do on a later note.

tomorrow is the start of school, AND HELL YEAH I CAN'T WAIT!

yahorr, i haven't updated about my three-days orientation.

hah.

to cut the story short: It's A Long Story.

but RP & my school totally totally bonded like glue.

Jam&Hop, party like mad.

will blog all about it when i'm free.

maybe during my breaks at school.

since the whole campus serves -wireless LAN-.

i love RP!

and my Azzie, who's starting to lag now.

haishoww~

Boyan / Bawean ?

2007-04-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

people always say that being different is good.
like how the saying would go: Dare to be Different.
but today, i hate being a little bit different in terms of within the Malay community.
being a Boyanese, or in correct spelling, Bawean.
people from other family backgrounds tend to look at us Baweans as people with 'black magic'.
or sometimes as a problematic kind.
urgh!
but, its not that i'm borne a full Bawean.
i'm half-Jawa & half-Bawean.
well, by right, i should be considered as a Jawa people than Bawean.
simply because of blood line.
something like a hierarchy thing.

okay, for the non-Malays who is reading this must be utterly confused by now right.
basically, "Jawa", "Bawean" & some others are the different communities within the Malay society.
just like how the Chinese have their "Hokkien", "Cantonese" thingy coming in.
and the Indians there's "Malayalee", "Hindustani", "Telugu" (i do have Indian friends okay).
so basically that's that.

anyway, coming to think of it, so what if i have Bawean blood..??
whoever who wants to befriend me, or even marry me, gotta accept who i am and my family background.
right peeps?

enough said about these 'religion' thing now.
these laptop heating up already.
by the way, how you guys like my new skin?
hees.
finally did these up after my previous blog design's image in imageshack.com has been removed.
LOL.
kena already then wanna do, wanna kanchiong.
typical Azrin.

2007-04-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

i wanna give my laptop a name uh.
hmm.. has to start with an 'A'.
since i'm 'A'zrin & its brand is 'A'cer.
hmm.. Aisyakapow?
hmm.. Aisheekaboom?
hmm.. or maybe Azzie?
Rachite, can or not..?
(must get your permission first, since you're the one who gave me that name.)

my cat is making a hell lot of noise.
just for fish.
haizz..

recovery reaction= leaking nose & dry cough & signs of fever.
thanks pillow pad.
you do magic.
now, get rid of all my toxins!!
too much of positive ions flowing in my vessels already.
wahahaha.
enough now.

okay. this entry sucks.
i saved this as draft few days ago.
so it shall be published now.

is it time yet?

2007-04-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

shall i change my skin, or not?
hmm..
it's not that i don't like this one, but i had actually downloaded two skins for some time already.
is it time to change yet?
God, give me a sign.

LOL.

it's 1845 already now.
Din is still not home yet.
haizz...
but he should be reaching soon, right..?

what's eleven minus two?
nine.
okay, 9 more days till i start school.
at RP.
well, based on my own knowledge, only six people that i know are coming to RP on the eleventh as well.
Jasmine, Sarkra, Iman, Arini, Shabrina & Celine.

bleah bleah bleah.

suddenly, i remember i do have a topic to blog about.
but ah..
next time yah.
i'm expecting Din to arrive in 20mins.
have to get busy after that.

hey, there's this new movie on MTV which, i think, gonna hit the box office.
something about "freedom writing" & "telling your story sets you free".
more of into the 'chicago' people type of life.

okay. i better go rest my head now.
it freaking aches me to use this laptop.
now i know, i prefer my comp at home.
bad, very bad, posture.
i need that pillow pad!
nyeargh.

i miss my secondary school friends. :(

i'd been tagged !

2007-04-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

there's this girl by the name of Ayn.

i read her tag about me & Din on Hafiz [MataTiga]'s blog.

and so i replied her back.

then from there, she visited my blog.

and now, she's a new friend.

who doesn't love NEW FRIENDS?!!

hees.

she tagged me to do this thing thingy.

and so, here we go ~

SIX WEIRD THINGS ABOUT NUR AZRIN:

one// mum said i sleep with my eyes half-open.

two// i keep missing the people who are absent, but hate it when they are around.

three// i can forget facts that i'd very attentively listened to, within 2 minutes.

four// i'm attracted to guys with goatees.

five// i like to pull Din's armpit hair.

six// i pity my cat cause everyone seems to be bullying her all the time, but i LOVE to rape her.

SIX PEEPOS WHO MUST WRITE THE 'SIX WEIRD THINGS' ABOUT THEMSELVES:

one// Laila ;

two// Denyse ;

three// Rachite ;

four// Jasmine ;

five// Ainni ; &

six// Arini ! [yes, you. ]

ALL OF YOU HAD BEEN TAGGED. PRFFT!! ;P

` LONELY

2007-03-31T01:21:00.001+08:00

maybe i'm just too used to have him sleeping here at my place.
tonight, he's not here with me.
or at least snoring in my brother's room.
to add on, he's fishing at ECP now. (East Coast Park)
haizz...

we had a small tensed conversation on the phone just now afternoon, while he was walking towards the mosque.
quite stupid yet hurting conversation.
it was small cause we managed to settle it as soon as it started.
now i'm thinking twice, again.
HAIZZ...

all throughout the month of March, he had been sleeping countless number of times here.
and i had countless number of sleepless nights as well.
not because we were chatting all night long.
it was because i was afraid i might not wake up on time to see him go off to work.
is that called love?
nah.. not that easy right..

next month, there will be this special day for us.
i am not prepared for it at all.
i need my paycheque. soon!

alright. i feel so the kental each time i blog about him.
its like, there's no other things in this world to talk about other than him.
but heck!
I LOVE HIM.
end.

friends forever ?

2007-03-22T00:12:00.001+08:00

one more week or so till the end of March breaks.
three crazy=siow weeks past like wind.
time has been a MAJOR factor for me.

though stressful most of the times, i'm contented with my life now.
rather than staying at home and simply rot, my lifestyle has changed.. for the better.
my seventeenth year is shaping up to be a perfect square.
[ Family ][ Love ][ Career ][ School ]

i admit that i'm missing one more thing- Friends.
well, like i've said on my intro page: MyFriends are flowers. Bloom when cared for. Wither if neglected.
i don't wanna say much about friendship, cause it hurts me each time i think about it.

i read this phrase somewhere and i agreed with it, at first: Months of friendship are better than years of love.
i grew up in secondary school believing that my girlfriends are always more important than boyfriends.
however, as we age on, i learnt that TRUE FRIENDS sees no gender.
doesn't matter if that person is a girl or a guy, but as long as he/she values you as a real friend, then that is what i will call a 'true friend'.

it saddens me when there came a day for me.
everything seems to be falling down on me.
like having a thick woolen black blanket covering my whole body, giving me no fresh air to breathe.
all of my pillars of strength have crashed down.
and all that is left was myself.
nobody knows what i was feeling, what i was going through.
texts are sent out, calling for help indirectly.
but none reply.

where were those friends who said they will be there for me?
where were they when i needed them the most?
where was the time when they said "today you've helped me, another day i'll help you"?

then i stopped asking all these but instead reflected on myself something else:

Where have i gone wrong, to the extend that my friends are actually abandoning me . . .
i'm still finding the answers to this last question.

God, I Love Him

2007-03-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

too many things happening.

hmm..

let's start with my posting result.

first, i was posted to Millenia Institute under Arts.

went to appeal for RP, TP & NYP on that Tuesday itself.

but i did went for MI's Orientation the following day.

the school is fun, though my heart wasn't there.

i'm just being present for the sake of it.

met and made a lot of friends there.

i love the school and environment.

but i dislike the principal.

end of story.

and so my appeal was successful.

disappointed though, i got into RP's Customer Relationship & Service Management.

well, that's the only course that i'm interested in in that school.

and i chose that school as my first appeal choice only because i wanna make my parents happy that i'd be going to a school very near home.

sheesh!

hmm..

suddenly i'm having thoughts of to not continue schooling.

and be a housewife instead.

bleableablea.

nonsense nurazrin.

so that's the part about school.

what else?

i guess that would be all that i'd be updating for tonight cuz i wanna get busy to change my skin.

plus, i'm feeling pretty lethargic now.

though i'd been at home the whole day today.

for Him:

honey, i love you, you know?

thanks for EVERYTHING.

losing you is soul-breaking.

you will never be replaced.

is it safe to say that . . .

2007-03-10T03:52:00.001+08:00

i feel like saying something out here.
but i'm darn sure it will hurt someone.
cause i can imagine myself feeling hurt if that person say such thing about me.
but can i just say it out?
urgh!
i feel like changing my . . .
dot dot dots.
hah!
but coming to think of it.
especially after that girl-2-girl talk i had with one my goodie fwen, Lila.
she may not know everything.
but, all that she had said does make sense.
yet, sometimes, things aren't just as wonderful as it looked like from a distance.
as one would approach closer, that's when they would realise, everything is not so perfect and cute after all.
while things may seem so fine at first, at the end of the day, there is bound to be at least one misunderstanding / miscommunication going on.
AARRGH!!
i can safely say lah for now: i'm feeling irritated!
irritated not because someone is disturbing me.
but irritated in the sense that someone has actually chosen to ignore me.
ah! malas ah nak pikirkan. uat sakit ati jek. pusing kiri je mcm nak hentam je kepale de.
URGH!
okay before i would get carried away, it's best i log off now yea.
sorry for the lousy update tonight.
i AM feeling lousy now actually.
okay enough!
ciao.
on the last note, just to let this out: why should i treat you as my everything if i am your nothing?

>O< home sweet home >O<

2007-03-06T02:27:00.001+08:00

have not been at my home pc for the past few days.
been coming home ever so late nowadays.
one good thing, it's getting earlier and earlier.
from 1AM then next day 12MN to 11PM just now.
the later i go out, the later i get home.
the earlier i go out, the earlier i get home.
simple as that.
reached home, get changed, eat [ sometimes too tired to even eat ], then Zzzz...
morning drag myself off the bed, showered, get dressed and off i go.

SHIT!
talking about this, suddenly a thought struck on me.
i have to wake up at 0750 later.
besides checking out for my JAE posting, i have to go out, again.
sheesh!
and maybe, i might even have to go to temasek poly.
cause i really want that L&M course even if i ain't offered for it.
and i'm going to appeal for it.
!!!!!!

another very very good thing is that- i meet Din every other day.
and it has never been better this way.
no fights for three days, what a record.
hah!
but there were still tears along the way.
Tears of Love, Tears of Joy.
heee...

okay, now my eyes are crossed.
off to bed first.
until i get to blog again.
tata~

yesterday, and the day before.

2007-03-02T07:07:00.001+08:00

the last entry was.. dots.

anyway, time to update about my own self yea.

okay, currently i'm feeling sleepy.

but i can't go to sleep.

cause i have to wake Din up later.

and the problem now is, i don't know what time does he want to be awoken.

he just went to sleep without saying anything to me just now.

even when i went to kiss him everywhere on his face, he was dead asleep [ yes, he's sleeping over at my place, for tonight only ].

hmm..

one thing i'd realised about him is that, he's quite a heavy sleeper.

but, he's actually not.

especially while he is with his friends.

maybe spending time with me is too boring that he must have felt sleepy every night that i'd be with him.

he can chill with his friends [ you guys know who you are ] all the way till sunrise.

but if he's with me, by 3 o'clock, he'd be sleeping already.

zzzzz....

tido, tido, tido.. tu je dia tahu..

yet, maybe i can understand why he can't get to sleep if he's out with you fellas.

maybe i do.

hmm..

right. i'd decided to wake him up at 0730 later.

shaish..! and why the hell is my dad sleeping with him tonight at the living room?!

Din would usually sleep alone or with my eldest brother outside, but why did Dad decided to accompany him??

sheesh! now i can't go wake him up the lovey-dovey way.

ha! ha!

now that's crap. heh.

alright! enough about him already.

during dinner just now [ finally, last night, we had a full attendance at the table + one pax extra ;) ],

my mum told me that i have orange hair... !!!

i started to think of the type of orange like my room wall colour.

but then, coming to think of it, my hair colour is a mixture of light brown and red.

so there, it gives you ORANGE!

and at the same time, my eldest brother's hair is blonde and my 2nd brother, red.

ha! ha! see, we have western blood in us.

but our parents remain as our parents.

although their hair are both black+grey.

okay. okay. i'll stop with this bullshit.

oh yes, i'd heard from the news radio just now evening.

that the results for the JAE will be sent at 8 AM or 8 PM [ i didn't get to hear that clearly ] on Tuesday, marchSIX.

hu hu hu. I CAN'T WAIT!

Oh God, please please please make me go TP L&M.

please please, pretty please?

for the past 2-3 days, i'd been watching Cicak-Man [ a Malay Malaysian movie ] and Ghost Rider at least two times.

Cicak-Man is a remix of Spider-Man and Batman.

Cicak, mentioned as Chi-Chak, is lizard in Malay.

in other words, it's Lizard-Man.

which sounds quite lame when translated to English.

what can i comment about that movie?

i love Saiful Apek! to the extreme!

call his jokes lame for all you want, but i love him because it tickles me each time i see his face.

Ghost Rider was almost un-understandable for me, at first.

the second round, i could finally understand the story here and there.

by the third watch, i can actually tell you how the story goes.

ha! ha!

and i find the part where Johnny and that cowboy-man riding together side-by-side was cool.

anyone else has comments about these two movies?

maybe this entry is only about Din. right?

2007-03-01T15:32:00.001+08:00

now that my blog hasn't been updated.
i'm back baby.

okay.

i'd just deleted my previous entry, which i'd done minutes ago.

i realised that it's sooo crappy.

and the topic was boring- O Level [ which is sooo over! ].

i was reading my previous previous blog on Friendster before this.

and again, i realised, i haven't changed one bit.

well, in terms of attitude lah.

banyak peh nak jadi matured.

ngomong2 kosong aja aku nie.

shaizz.. why?!

i'm still the mean old Azrin who would always take Din for granted.

shiann ah dier...

baby, baby, i love you taus.

cepat datang please.

or at least call me.

i'm missing you.

suddenly, i remembered my old days.

while i was still schooling.

especially my Sec Four life.

i'd always be missing my boyfriend.

partly because we only meet like once a week, at most?

that's quite sad right..?

and i'd always be telling him, "after O's. after O's."

today itself, it is wayyy after O's.

and i'm seeing him ever so often.

well, what can i say?

i can never be happier!

hee.

he is magic.

yes, my magical huney who creates miracles.

okay, now that the feeling of lazytoblog is striking me.

i'm off.

will you sing to me those sappy Malay songs at the highway, like you did the other night, again?

it's a feeling i've never been through.

thanks for that night baby.

from Beach Road to Esplanade night.

you did me fine.

CCK wedding

2007-02-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

i woke up ridiculously early today [ which was at 1330!! ].
had to attend my second cousin's wedding at Choa Chu Kang [ second as in, my cousin's cousin ].
but first, my dad drove us to Bukit Panjang.
to fetch my beloved niece, Syura.
she wore a pink baju kurung with her hair tied into two ponytails.
how cute!

then we proceed to CCK for the wedding.
the reception just now was.. hmm... ok2 lah.
while me and family was walking towards the multi-purpose hall, i could see my other nieces from far.
one of them, Dina, when she caught sight of me, her eyeball went rounder.
ha. ha.
Auntie!!!
that was the only word she could summon when she saw my face.
the other one, Alyaa, came straight at me and salam.
my first warning to her: Today no play, no shouts, no Auntie Azrin.
and she understood.
but whyyy didn't Syasya, Shaza & Nayli came????
i miss them.
hmph.. ):

and of course, my own niece Syura, was all angel, as usual.
the only thing she would do when asked anything was- shake her head.
when brought to the playground, she simply sat beside me.
it takes time for her to adapt to her surroundings and socialise.
unlike my other cousins' daughters, they are just too friendly.
maybe that's part of the boyan blood in all of us.
[ Syura got DKK from her mother. ] go find that out yourself.
heh.

oh yes, and one last thing.
the karaoke-ing people.
those ladies should be retiring by now.
but instead, they are singing for people's wedding.
i wonder if they get paid for that.
and luckily, some guys came up to the deejay to replace those women.
those guys are most likely to be the groom's friends [ the groom is my 2nd cousin lah tu ].
i didn't know that he's involved in "design motor".

the first pair, two guys, sang Butakah Cinta.
i gotta admit, while i was gorging myself on my nasi padang, i couldn't help to avoid the fact that i was melting when i listened to them sing.
it's not their faces [ bukannya handsome sangat dorang tu ].
it was their voice, when they sang.
mak kau! tak bleh angkat beb..
ha! ha! ha!
sorry baby. [ my heart is still for you k ]
the next song by another pair was Lamunan Terhenti.
kiwekk.. lagu kenangan sak tu.
urgh! i don't wanna think about that memory though.

okay. enough of boys.
now, i have to go wash the dye on my hair.
it has been on my head for the past three hours.
hah. i am sooo gonna spoil my hair again.
by the way, it's red f.y.i.
i ordered my brother to highlight for me.
but i think he'd just did it on my whole hair.
heh. wth.
i really better go now.
ciao.

terhenti lamunan
bila ku dikejutkan
engkau dipimpin pergi
oleh seseorang
dalam keterpaksaan
kau melangkah kaki
namun sempat jua kau menoleh ku disini
dalam keterpaksaan
kau melangkah pergi
namun sempat jua kau menoleh ku di sini

i'm UPSET.

2007-02-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

ever felt like the world crashing down on you after all your high hopes had been smashed onto the wall?

okay, i know i'm kinda over-reacting.

but heck!

i was such a happy bird this morning.

thinking that i'd be able to meet my prince in the evening later.

and all that hope had to be thrown away.

because of some miscommunication, i think.

it's my mum actually.

she told me she has no plans tonight, but it turned out, she had to go for the rewang thingy.

i don't blame her lah of course.

it's not her fault that she's been called to come.

but some people should understand that she'd just came back from night shift work.

she deserve some rest and peace, doesn't she?

no matter what, she's still coming tomorrow afternoon what.

sheesh!

poor mummy.

had to be woken up by those persisting calls and texts from her mobile.

and now, yet again, i'm stuck bored at home.

i'm thinking of going out and send Din home by bus.

but the weather is not giving me any chances to step out of the house.

oh ya, and screw tht schedule i made this morning.
it's totally wrecked.

i hung on the phone with him till 0815.
slept at about 0830.
and woke up at 1540.

i did help my mum, but only in the kitchen.
the house is still in a mess, and i'm not motivated to dust and clean any part of it, cause nobody is coming tonight. ):
so there's no point cleaning up. /:

yes, i AM upset.

cause i can't meet my baby tomorrow!

shitass.

when i'm busy, he's available.

but when i'm free, he's busy.

i guess the only thing i can look forward to now is that i'm meeting my grandmama and my naughty nieces tomorrow.

yeshh!

and i shall be their "victim", again, tomorrow.

hah. it's like they could read a signboard on my back saying, "Hello, I'm Auntie Azrin. Come bully me."

and there we go, with Alyaa calling my name every 5minutes.

Auntie Azrin, Auntie Azrin, Auntie Azrin.

now i miss Din's nieces.

they look innocent, but they have naughty minds, just like their own uncle Din.

PATIENCE; my foot!

2007-02-23T05:50:00.000+08:00

boring larh.

if i go on with my life like this, you all will receive invitation to my grand funeral very soon.

okay, just kidding. [ only because i know someone hates to hear me saying like this ]

but seriously, i'm stuck and feeling bleah being at home.

yes, i'm free to go out, but where?

my family is like doing their own stuff everyday.

Din is only free for me after seven on weekdays or just the weekends.

my girlfriends. sheesh.

one works like almost all the time,

another either school or boyfriend,

the rest remained silent.

i still remembered, in January, i was very much anxious about getting my o' results.

i'd keep saying, "i can't wait, i can't wait.."

although i'd shiver at the thought of getting shit as my grades.

yet i can't believe that i'm still chanting the same phrase.

despite the fact that i'd looked over and over again at my results slip.

and i had even slept with it once.

now, i have to wait till March for my posting results.

and might even have to further wait till April for orientation.

and Oh God, please give me a place in MI.

i will be a good girl there. @.@

"It pays to be patient."- pantat!

mendak tau asik dok ruma jek.

i'm producing flabs at the wrong places already sia.

luckily my legs are still in good, long and sexy shape.

hee. y'all have to agree with that right?

it's quite unsightful to see legs or arses with those kind of ever-so-obvious fats.

where you could actually see the lines and caving-in dots.

you know what i mean?

yeah.. okay, Eww that now...

hmm.. coming to think of it, if i'd manage to get into MI, it means i'd have to wear school uniform again.

and then, i can show off my beautiful legs under that blue skirt.

ha! ha! ha!

my schedule for today:
wake him up - 0545

sleep - 0600

wakey / eat / shit - 1300

assist my mum [ learning to be a housewife ] - 1430
1living room should be sparkling clean and arranged, 2my room looking decent enough, 3food is all set, 4i am all showered and ready. - by 1830

have my guests seated & POOF! - 1930

ha! ha!

what lame crap that is.

but nah, it's nothing for the public to know.

maybe the only info i'd say is, Din is coming. YAY!

ohsheeshakababoom.

now i remembered.

i'm supposed to be missing him.

okay, i DO miss him.

its just that i'm putting aside that feeling, cause it will only make me go shadd.

awww...

now, let's end this entry with his pic.

alahh.. shiann lah dia kena paksa amek gambar.

5mins ago, i'd just called him. and whee~! i'm going over cloud nine. it perks me up each time i hear him answering the phone in the morning. cause he will sound ever so cute. not forgetting, masham! >.<

FIRST; commencement / announcement ?

2007-02-22T05:41:00.000+08:00

finally, with help from Dee at 0420 in the wee hours, i managed to create a proper blog for myself.

i will slowly hunt for my mates and add them onto my links.

whoever who'd read this, please report at the tagboard please.

i must know your presence.

tee hee.

my previous blog at my msn space might be deleted very soon.

basically because i'd had many weird and scary readers from all over the world.

well, i don't mind Italians but Turks???

no offence against that nationality but, generally, their men are very disgusting, really.

why do their first questions have to be about kcuf ? ? ?

real sick in the mind.

i have proof you know.

urgh!

i might have to change my email address again.

okay. i'd been yawning for more than seven times for the past minute now.
why not? it's 6 o'clock in the morning.
time to go make a wake-up call.
tata!

bleargh.